Liez *hugs* get better sweetie!
Jasmine- I believe our friends over seas have to go to work today... Apparently the Lex have been buzzing so much since there have been a few "snow days" this week. I had my ind set on responding to you all, but my internet got an anxiety attack...
So I started writing instead, and now I'm too tired. For those who care, I'm working on chapter 3 of RED. Sorry it takes so long for me to update it, it's just that I'm in no hurry, since I've known all along how this goes, and if it's stayed with me for 3 months already, it ain't disappearing. I am a bit more active with N&J, because there I do loose my strain of thought from time to time... say dreaming anyone?
Lily- your dog is adorable. I hear you about FB. I wish I had some other way of talking to you!
Misty- You need to start stalking your mailman any day now!
Cat- I just added you, real name Linda (I hate it!) and I share it with, oh, 2 or 3 girls of my age wherever I go... It was really, -really- popular in the beginnings of the 80's... Apparently because of some song.
Malu- you're so cute!
All- Like Jas, I only upload the good pictures. almost, the one from the gala (on FB) where I pose with Tommy is not good, but D liked it. But I can make myself look good on picture, I have enough angles in my face for that. However, in "real" life I'm much more boring, and I to look my age and then some... Well, truthfully, I haven't changed that much the last five years. I get that from mom, you who have seen the wedding pic's, would you believe her to be turning 55 this year?
Paula, Maria!!!
My MSN have a virus, so if you get a IM from me, with something like "foto??
he he
[whatever-link-here]"
DON'T CLICK IT!!! I got it from a friend who knew she had it, and still logged on... I don't know when it'll be operational again, I'll have to wait until D comes home and gives me the doom 
it was one of my few ways of talking to you! Because FB chat just makes a girl wanna cry...
Oh, by the way. D is coming home. Like in coming-home coming home. Permanently. School didn't work out. I feel so sorry for him. But he seems a bit happier now that he decided to get into shape to be able to score a certain point in the Cooper-test you have to go through to be accepted to the Coastal Guard. I don't mind, then I'll get that muscled boy I once started having way too much feelings for back
So, I loved how you all shared with the rest of us your own personal experiences about first time. Like I said, I controlled mine. Poor boy...
I was however already de-flowered about "the magic", I read far too many books as a child. I had read very unappropriated things for a 11 year old to know, and there was no one checking out the books I read. (NO, I wasn't 11 at my debut, I was 3 weeks from 15, but I was 11 the first time I remember reading smut) When I met him, I had already stopped reading that stuff, just feeling sick about it. It still goes like that. My friend A is totally into Harlequin's Erotica and have lent me a few books. I didn't like them, what so ever. In the end I just flipped by the smut-pages...
I think my short post to say goodnight went out the window...
I'm on a roll now...
I was always a difficult child. I smiled and talked and was happy all the time. I wasn't shy to start with, I was naive. I thought that there were only nice people in the world. I was bullied throughout school, mainly for being fat. Looking back on my school pictures, I was nothing even close to that. I wasn't slender and pixie-like as most girls in my grade was, but I had an athletic body. I always felt ugly, because since they all said it, it had to be true, right? I told my mom once, because I was so unhappy I just wanted to die. After I saw her reaction (horror, fear, panic) I never spoke of it again. The teachers in the school worked from the principle "Ignore it and they will stop." right... For almost four years my only friend was a girl who only spent time with me until her "real" friends had time for her. This she said to me, I remembered thinking that at least I wasn't that pathetic. When I was 10 I found my first real friend. Unfortunately she outgrew me a few years later (sorry to say, it was my fault, I was being very childish).
I found a few more friends throughout the years, who all ended up betraying me one way or another (latest example, supposedly bff, haven't heard from her since 2 days before the wedding, when she wanted me to come over to her for the evening, to massage her back... Oh, yeah, and yesterday when she gave me the virus...)
This is the reason I have immense problems dealing with rejection. Even if it's not personal, I take it personal. I always feel as if I wasn't doing good enough. That's the reason I love the fanfic business, no one knows me, so they don't feel like they have to make me happy. So I can be sure that any good review is because they like the story. I can even feel rejected by something as silly as someone not responding to an e-mail...
OMJB!!! 10 posts while I was posting... and of course I found more to respond to...
Say yes!!! PLEASE!!!! *bats eyes*
. And I do love feeling official. hmmm...
, which, as I wrote a few pages back, was a pic for a phony e-harmony profile my roommate at the time and I wanted to make, just to see how many hits we got... 
