Re: The Dating Thread -- take 3
Posted: Mon Oct 19, 2009 4:38 pm
Sorry guys, but I'm sick and don't have much time for stuff online, so I just have time for an update. Long. Sorry.
Update: For a while not much happened. Then later I caught him looking at me several different times, sometimes he’d smile, sometimes not. I got back my midterm and my quiz we took after the midterm, and I bombed both. Then we had lab and in lab I kept thinking of how I’m failing this class, how I failed my math course last semester and having to take it again. Afraid I’d fail another and desperately don’t want that to happen. My ADD/anxiety disorder, so it was overwhelming me. Even though I am being treated for it, I do have days like that. It took me forever to stop. Anyway. Shawn moved to a different lab group after a while with one of my friends and some others. My friend called me over and let me make copies of the worksheets everyone was doing. Shawn smiled at me, I'm sure trying to make me feel better/feeling bad for me. I said thank you to my friend who let me make copies, went and splashed water on my face for a few minutes, went to the copy machine, and all that.
I got back. After class my friend told me they felt bad for me and they understood. I was relieved to hear that, especially knowing that Shawn was with them and I’m sure he felt bad for me too. She said the girl in my group felt bad she didn’t say anything, but she did wind up offering to let me make copies, but I’d already gotten them from my friend. I talked with my teacher and told her about the disablities and she said we could modify my grades. Thank god. Went out into the hallway after class. Saw Shawn. I saw him working on something but he was smiling down at it, and unless I’m totally crazy, I think he was smiling about seeing me. Went off to the restroom and came back and talked to him. At one point I told him I was just overwhelmed and told him about having a couple learning disablities, and that I don’t usually do that but today of all days I did. But that I was better and I just needed to calm down. He nodded and said, “Mhm.” Probably just not knowing what to say. Because another friend who saw me upset when I was washing my face talked to me and she was passing by when I was talking to Shawn and asked if I was okay. So I thought I’d mention it since it came up and just be honest about it. Maybe that was wrong of me to say anything, but oh well. Changed the subject and talked about the usual.
Found another thing I have in common with him. Then a faculty member came over (a guy) and I smiled at some things they said even though some were more guy things. Haha. Then after a bit I walked off to go do whatever while they had guy talk. Came back after a bit and he was sitting with a girl friend.. He said to her he wanted and his mom wanted to see the new Sherlock movie. She didn’t look too interested, so I smiled and said, “Me too. It looks funny.” And he smiled and agreed. His friend left at about that moment. Hmmmm.. Later he said “I’m going to the library to chill.” Smiling. So I went outside. Later he came outside and started talking to me. It’s chilly out today so he said he liked the cold, and I just smiled, agreed it felt nice. He put his notebook on top of his head, balancing. So I said, “You trying to balance?” He nodded, smiled, and crossed his arms while still balancing it. “And now you look like a genie with your arms crossed,” I said jokingly, and smiled, crossing my arms too. He laughed and said, “Yep.” I think he said something else joking about it, but I don’t remember what it was now. Talked some more, then his mom came to pick him up.
Update: For a while not much happened. Then later I caught him looking at me several different times, sometimes he’d smile, sometimes not. I got back my midterm and my quiz we took after the midterm, and I bombed both. Then we had lab and in lab I kept thinking of how I’m failing this class, how I failed my math course last semester and having to take it again. Afraid I’d fail another and desperately don’t want that to happen. My ADD/anxiety disorder, so it was overwhelming me. Even though I am being treated for it, I do have days like that. It took me forever to stop. Anyway. Shawn moved to a different lab group after a while with one of my friends and some others. My friend called me over and let me make copies of the worksheets everyone was doing. Shawn smiled at me, I'm sure trying to make me feel better/feeling bad for me. I said thank you to my friend who let me make copies, went and splashed water on my face for a few minutes, went to the copy machine, and all that.
I got back. After class my friend told me they felt bad for me and they understood. I was relieved to hear that, especially knowing that Shawn was with them and I’m sure he felt bad for me too. She said the girl in my group felt bad she didn’t say anything, but she did wind up offering to let me make copies, but I’d already gotten them from my friend. I talked with my teacher and told her about the disablities and she said we could modify my grades. Thank god. Went out into the hallway after class. Saw Shawn. I saw him working on something but he was smiling down at it, and unless I’m totally crazy, I think he was smiling about seeing me. Went off to the restroom and came back and talked to him. At one point I told him I was just overwhelmed and told him about having a couple learning disablities, and that I don’t usually do that but today of all days I did. But that I was better and I just needed to calm down. He nodded and said, “Mhm.” Probably just not knowing what to say. Because another friend who saw me upset when I was washing my face talked to me and she was passing by when I was talking to Shawn and asked if I was okay. So I thought I’d mention it since it came up and just be honest about it. Maybe that was wrong of me to say anything, but oh well. Changed the subject and talked about the usual.
Found another thing I have in common with him. Then a faculty member came over (a guy) and I smiled at some things they said even though some were more guy things. Haha. Then after a bit I walked off to go do whatever while they had guy talk. Came back after a bit and he was sitting with a girl friend.. He said to her he wanted and his mom wanted to see the new Sherlock movie. She didn’t look too interested, so I smiled and said, “Me too. It looks funny.” And he smiled and agreed. His friend left at about that moment. Hmmmm.. Later he said “I’m going to the library to chill.” Smiling. So I went outside. Later he came outside and started talking to me. It’s chilly out today so he said he liked the cold, and I just smiled, agreed it felt nice. He put his notebook on top of his head, balancing. So I said, “You trying to balance?” He nodded, smiled, and crossed his arms while still balancing it. “And now you look like a genie with your arms crossed,” I said jokingly, and smiled, crossing my arms too. He laughed and said, “Yep.” I think he said something else joking about it, but I don’t remember what it was now. Talked some more, then his mom came to pick him up.