this was one of the longest posts I actually read. I feel sorry for you.metro_girl0 wrote:Hey all, what's up? I know I haven't been on in a very long time, sorry.
Anyways, I'm listening to break-up songs, I don't know why. I broke up with my boyfriend the day after Valentine's Day, sucky right? I felt so bad after wards, but it just wasn't working out, you know? We'd been going out for 4 months and all he knew about me was that I had a brother and I liked to read. He didn't even know my middle name! He didn't even call me by first name, he knew it, he just didn't use it. It was always baby girl this, or baby that. It got to be so annoying. And we never got to see eachother because we go to different schools. The worst thing was that after two days he started saying I love you to me, and I just wasn't feeling that way about him, but I said it anyway because he kept bugging me until I said it, which made me feel even worse because I didn't feel that way about him. I'm not allowed to date, so I had to keep it secret from my parents, which was really bothering me, because I didn't like doing that. I cried all night after we broke up because I felt horrible, and I couldn't help feeling like I had made a mistake by breaking up with him. Meanwhile my friends that actually knew I was dating him, told me that he wasn't worth me being sad over and all that, but I felt that way anyway. Has anyone evel felt that way too? But now he thinks I'm a bfh and it hurts so bad. He moved now, to the town right next to where he used to live, but we have some of the same friends and people are telling me what he's saying. He also asked one of my friends out, which really bothers me because he told me that he loved me for 4 months! Everyone was right about him, I should of listened to them, but I didn't and now I feel horrible about it. A good adult friend of mine, she's a teacher, says that by letting him bother me I'm letting him emotionally blackmail me, and everyone agrees with her, but that doesn't stop me from feeling horrible.
Sory, I was rambling, I just need to get it out of my system. And even though he's obviously moved on, and I sort of like someone else, it still makes me feel horrible at times. It makes me feel like such a horrible person, I wasn't trying to be mean, but I just couldn't take it anymore. And he was so touchy-feely it was driving me nuts, all he really cared about was that and I wasn't into that as much as he was.
To top it off, who I like right now, is someone I'll never have a chance with because she's my best friend and she doesn't like me like that. How do I get myself in these situations! Grrr, my life is so weird!
Well, I'll stop writing now, talk to all later.
anyway I am lostening to How do you sleep by Jessi Mcartney.
Okay seriously where did all our Adult lexiconers go? I haven't seen the n in forever!!
I bought Blue Bloods yesterday and I am like half way thru already! It is relly good and creepy!
The cover of it is so scary because there is this bite on a girls neck and it is indented! it is so freakin scary!