Actually...Bella does sort of hint around at this concept throughout the series. Yes, her reason for wanting to become immortal is Edward, but in the very beginning of Twilight she says, "Facing my pallid reflection in the mirror, I was forced to admit that I was lying to myself. It wasn't just physically that I'd never fit in." ... "I didn't relate well to people my age. Maybe the truth was that I didn't relate well to people, period. Even my mother, ... was never in harmony with me, never on exactly the same page. Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain."TeamBellaAllTheWay wrote:AND, the final scene was pathetic. What the hell was Bella on about with all that "I always knew I wasn't normal" crap?! They tried way too hard...she never even says that. They got it totally wrong there. Her reason, and ONLY reason for wanting to become immortal is to be with Edward for eternity, that and nothing else. Prior to meeting him, she would never have dreamed of immortality. That's a central concept and I can't believe they messed that up!
This is before her first day at school.
Then after they leave the restaurant, and she is trying to figure out why he can't hear her mind; "The only guess I have is that maybe your mind doesn't work the same way the rest of theirs do. Like your thoughts are on the AM frequency and I'm only getting FM". He grinned at me suddently amused.
"My mind doesn't work right? I'm a freak?" The words bothered me more than they should - probably because his speculation hit home. I'd always suspected as much and it embarrassed me to have it confirmed".
I agree that had she not met Edward she wouldn't have considered becoming immortal. But then, why would any human think that this was an alternative without going through what we have gone through with Bella? After meeting the Cullens, she sees that there may be another reason that she's never felt like she fit in. This is one reason that I don't like the movie Bella quite as much. Yes, she has a stronger character, and that's a plus for the role model category. But in the book, I feel like she sees herself as being quite a bit different than other teenagers. Awkward yes, but it's as though she was never meant to live a human life. Once she's turned it's almost as though she finally realizes that she gravitated towards this life because it's what she was meant to be. It's the life she finally fits into.
And she owns herself throughout the series. Yes, she does get manipulated, but she also knows that no one controls her decisions or her life except her. She doesn't blame anyone else for everything that's wrong in her life the way that has become so common. She's ultimately angry at herself for the hurting those she cares about or putting them in danger. Though she did not actively provoke the reactions that everyone around her has to her, but she still blames herself for the outcome.